Journaling for me is a way to get my thoughts onto paper so that I might just be able to seperate them and see them one at a time instead of all jumbled up within my head. I have been journaling for many years and there has been a few times that I put the pen down and spend months not writing anything down. As was my last spell before starting my online blog journal.
The quiet serenity of sitting by myself with my thoughts first thing in the morning was a habit I developed over the course of those many years journaling. It was the time I used for the introspective discoveries of self. Though, I have to admit, this last break from journaling, I was at a point where I needed to really get inside myself and see what was going on. I had read a few journal entries from previous years and because of the spot I was in, the journal entries from years ago, almost were identical to the entries made very recently. I had this one thought, what is the point? That was it, I put the pen down and did not journal for months.
I missed it, the journaling, but i substituted it with other activitites. In the begining, work mainly, then extra long dog walks. I still missed it. I think what I really needed was the actual purpose behind it. I knew the meaning and reason, but as my life consciousness is expanding, there is the need to know and understand purpose of my life. And there is more than just one purpose.
Anyways, I had started a website for my entrepreneurial business that I was inspired to start, IT Consciousness. This is based upon metaphysical beliefs and thought processes of enhancing one’s self. Expanding consciousness and increasing an understanding of one’s sense of being and identity. All in search of purpose and meaning of existence. There is much that I want to add and to have within this business structure, but as i have found out, it will take many years to get it all built up just the way that i feel it needs to be, for me to honestly and efficiently share with other’s my own thoughts and experiences of energy consciousness awareness. With this, my mission, is the ability to guide those that also have this deep seeded urge to be more, do more and to understand more and to know more about themselves and their purpose in this life and eternal energy consciousness existence.
As mentioned earlier, this business will be many years in the making, and i do know that it will never truly be finished, it will always need to be added to and updated as with changes in life. So is our own unique human being changing and shifting, IT Consciousness will also need to change. The one thing that always bothered me was the fact that i wanted to start my own blog, For others to read and to get a sense of the more that there is to life, while at the same time, realizing that we all have so many different and unique thoughts. And also, just for all the thoughts rolling around in my head. I wanted a foundation, needed to have a certian amount of actual content to give those that are themselves searching and seeking for their purpose and path. Yet, every time I looked at the site, it just did not seem the way i wanted it to be. I felt almost pressured to always have something of substance to write. Then realized, I am stuck in the material thinking. I wanted to write a blog that has substance to it, but i always tried having a more objective meaning to it, this i think is what made it hard. I need to write with my own subjectivity, and not need to worry about the objectivity that i think others are seeking, this is, after all, for me, my human condition enhancement. I need others to see who I am, hear and feel who I am, and choose, of their own free will, if i am who they want to learn and to guided with.
So, my journal blog, now is my thoughts, intuitive, subjectively and empirically, being put out for all to see so that they may have as much information as i can give them so that they can make this choice and decision to enhance their human condition with me.
Now, my journaling has it’s purpose. It did before, but as we all know, changes occur every moment of existence, one moment does not stay exactly identically to the last. As i have been growing and changing within, i have realized that even though there was a point in my journaling that i had the low vibrational thought of “What is the point?” The point is, my journaling, while helping me sort through my thoughts, are also my thoughts, now, put out there, to help others. This is part of my overall purpose for this life. To give guidance and support to those also seeking for their purpose.