This sounds really self explanatory, taking care of myself. But, in reality, it is one of the hardest things that i have to do every day. There is so much to taking care of myself, not just the eating properly or physical activity. There is a mental aspect and this i find to be the hardest.
How do i feel about myself, is just the beginning.
There is so much that i discover everyday, and with that the frustrations of why i can not control the thoughts and feelings that seem to come rushing into my semi-consciousness. Even the concept of knowing what is going on inside my mind is not enough to form an understanding of all these thoughts and feelings, that at times, take control and i can not shut them off.
When i am in control, or, when i feel somewhat at peace from the whirling chaotic thoughts and feelings, this is when i must try and organize what was happening within my mind, the mental and physical effects onto myself. This is when a little bit of understanding of my inner depths becomes a little more exposed to my conscious knowing of self and authenticity.
One thing that i have been putting off, is a way to keep my attention and focus on what it is that i think, need and want to accomplish with this life. I believe that this is a peice of my overall purpose of being.
Another peice of my overall purpose, is to get on a conscious and mindfull path of my purpose of life and the meaning that it has. Which i am hesitant to say, but i think that i need to start a list, a plan, goals and key points that i think i need to focus on. A routine in this life that will keep me focused. I think the easiest place to start is on the physical aspects of life. Eating and physical activity. Both of these do make me feel really good or really bad, it all depends on how i integrate them both. And of late, it has been very poor, which i firmly believe is one of the key ingredients to the chaotic darkness and low vibration of my overall energy.
I have to change.