Aug 20, 2023

As i explore more and delve deeper into the esoteric realms of knowing and understanding, I come to realize that it does all make sense, that while the peices of the puzzle of existence are all around us, many of them are interchangeable, always fitting together but making a new picture. The frustrations of life is just that! Interchangeable puzzle peices that can make understanding and knowing attainable, while at the same time showing that no matter how much knowledge is gained, I still do not know. I think that it is the confusion that I encounter every day, that is confusing the aspects of the material and physical with that of the physical and astral. Frustrations and fears felt or more than just part of our human condition. I feel that as we humans are quite an extraordinary example of life, as we know it, we miss the basic foundamental fact of our very existence. To Learn, to experience and to understand. Every day is a new day, a new chance and opportunity. This is my frustration! I know this is what I am supposed to be doing, yet I feel that I am not. The more I work on self and understanding, the more vague and abstract it seems to be. It is not good and bad, strong and weak, north or south, there is never only one definitive answer or knowing or understanding, there are always more. Like the scale on a thermometer, there are always points in between and yet these points also have there own scale and in between.The most frustrating and confusing part of this new understanding and knowing, is the fact the I must still remain an active part of the material world, the esoteric training that I have choosen to undergo shows me new truths of life, but while I am to remain in the physical, the full understanding of existence shall not be revealed. Only peices over many incarnations will be shared and each peice will contain an infinite amount of information that may or may not all fit together with the learning path that I am on. But while this all, in a sense seems senseless, to our being and to our existence, we must remain in the physical for the use of our cognitive faculties have the keys to help us aquire a knowing of the higher knowledge that is attainable for all.Many, over the course of their life, will at times, sense this learning, many never will. It will take many incarnations for ones consciousness to even begin to realize this learning and understanding that is ongoing through every moment of being and thought.