What i think is that i must have a purpose for being here, living and breathing in this body. I think, no, know that i, we, humans all have an ultimate purpose. It is what drives us every day, compells us to move forward in this life, to do what ever it is that we do. We just don’t know it. This urge that almost forces us to keep looking and searching and doing, and i believe that for many, it is a part of our nature, our human beingness.
For me? It is driving me crazy, this feeling, that i have purpose and i don’t know what it is, and yet i do. I can feel it’s energy burning deep inside, this infinite knowing of why i am here, fleeting thoughts of absolute understanding of my purpose and that of existence. Is it only me? I think not. Why does not every one else feel or know this? I think we all do, on some level or another. But mainly because of the distractions within our life that we use to bury and hide this deeper sense of knowing. These distractions started many generations ago, and have been entwined within our very DNA structure, passed on through the genes of our ancestors. We just keep adding to it, over time, Forgotten.
I happened upon this actual sense of knowing, when studying aspects of the higher worlds of knowledge, Philosophy, and theosophical litterature. As i have mentioned before, i have always had some sort of understanding and knowing that there is more to life than what i am living, and that of what those around me are living and teaching. But i have come to realize, it is not my place to search and gain new knowledge and understanding of my existence and purpose, and to try and make other understand and to believe also. No. My purppose is to search for new knowledge and understanding and to experience it. Then, when other’s are ready, it will be my time share and guide, from my experience and knowledge, for others to experience and expand their consciousness also.
So while i have this deep inner desire, almost a need to shout out at the world that there is so much more to this life and to this existence than what we are living, and that it is so full of wondorous and amazing cool stuff, i must not. We each have to come into that awakened moment on our own terms, in our own way. It is my purpose to be there for those whose awakening has begun, to bring coffee and to talk.