I have decided to start titleling some of my journal enteries, specifically those that have a reoccuring thought pattern in my life. For example, Purpose. I have written, journaled and blogged lots about what purpose is and what it means for me. But, for the most part, i believe that purpose is what gives meaning to this life and to our overall existence. I believe that purpose is the reason why we are here, we have a purpose in this life, to be here. Oh, i could go round and round in circles.
Sylvia Brown says that we have contracts in this life. That we plan out how this life is going to go, Sort of. I like that thought, though, i believe that it goes even deeper than that and that we can never actually plan the specifics of life and how exactly it will go, only because i believe that we are here for the learning experience and that if everything was already planned and put in place, we would not actually be adding new experiences to our consciousness. I do not think that the theory that we create contracts for this life is in fact exact, i believe that these sort of contracts are more of a general, “Hey, i want to experience this in this next life” and then go from there.
I really do not even know if i believe in that, but it gives me a sense of purpose, and that makes me feel worthy.
My purpose? I have many different thoughts, mainly, I do not have only one purpose in this life, there are many. Some of the purposes have other purposes attached to them. This knowing that i have purpose, gives my life the meaning that i need to keep pushing on and forward. Also, when there is a meaning, the sense of purpose becomes more consciously apparent. Rambling again.
My belief;
I have a purpose for being here, and that fundamental purpose is to learn and experience adding to my higher consciousness, essentialy expanding consciousness. There are also many purpose off shoots to that main purpose, many that give meaning to the hows, whats and whys of my life. These all solidify within my being that i am on purpose. It is when i have the inner sense of being on purpose, on my proper path for this journey in this life, is when this life starts to make sense, but not really. More of a intuitiveness that all is as it should be.
This in no way is an excuse to stop striving for the betterment of my self, it is in fact more of an inspiring urge that propels me to keep learning and experiencing. I still have the thoughts that i want my life to be different. I want more form this life, that i know and sense that there is more to this life. I am not supposed to just fit in and follow the rat race ruts, I am to continually expand and grow within myself, in this life. And it is frustrating because at many times there is always something in my way that prevents me from doing just that. But then i realize, if everything happens the way i want it to, would i actually learn what i am to learn? or to experience on an authentic level of awareness that which will expand my actual consciousness? Or am i just being human and whining?
The purpose is to know that i am on purpose. There is a feeling deep inside that lets me know when i am, and that same feeling lets me know when i am not.
When i am not on purpose is when i am consumed with human condition emotions that restrict my outlook on life. But again, the purpose is to learn and experience with and through the human condition. Or else why am i human?