There are momnets where every thing feels ok, like everything is supposed to be the way it is supposed to be. Even though not much has changed from the day before. I think it is becauae i am becoming more aware of myself and my part in this existence every day. When i am feeling discouraged or frustrated, hepless and hopeless, it is only because i am not currently being conscious of being apart of existence and connected to all this is apart of it. I know, that sounds pretty deep, what do i mean? To be honest and still really vague, we each have to discover and experience our own, each and every day.
There is so much self help and self improvement techniques, literature, courses and classes available now a days that it is really overwhelming. I often wonder how i can even add to the wisdom and knowledge that is widely available to everyone, and this make me feel small. And yet there is a part of me that knows that i can make a differenece, one person at a time, even if it is not life changeing, a small peice that can help to increase one’s human condition, is a start.
I realize that first and foremost i must not focus outside of my self, my external environment, the circumstance and situations of my life, nor the people or places. I must learn to be more attentive of me. How i am feeling and why. What am i thinking and why. My thoughts and why they are and how they come into being. This sounds like some kind of buddha zen stuff, and it kinda is. But i have learnt how to understand how to do it for myself, and i know that that knowledge and experience is whati have to share with others also.
Even though i have hours and days of low energy thoughts and feelings, i have come to understand that this is only a normal occurance in my own evolutionary path of enhancement. We can not know what pleasure is, unless we have experience pain.
As the ancient hermetic axiom goes, “Everything is dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in the degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled” ~The Kybalion
This knowing on a conscious level of being and understanding is what can help each and everyone of us to enhance our own human condition. Though many may not be ready for or prepared to learn and understand and to experience at this time, and that is ok. I must know that even i, as a beginner in the ancient ways and higher knowledge, i can impart certian knowledge and wisdom for those that are on the very edge of their own understanding.
This is my purpose.