What ever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. The stuff that makes life hard only makes us stronger. No pain no gain. It isnt worth it if we dont have to work for it.
We have all heard these little quotes, kinda like inspirational saying to help us keep going, striving for our own excellence.
I say it’s all bullshit. I do believe in hard work, i do not believe in someone else saying to another that which makes them feel better about a situation that some one else is in. But as humans we have to always stick our noses into someone elses business. Does it make ourself feel better that someone else is going through a difficult time? Or having a stressful moment in life? And that we feel obligated now to share some little words of advice while secretly we are relieved that it is not ourselve in that particular situation of hardship?
I hate my life at times. The bullshit that happens. And it happens to all of us. And yes, if i look at my life as it is now, my hardest moment, might still seem like paradise compared to someone elses life. But why is it that we are in situations at times that just make life seem so hopeless and beyond control? It is because of the choices and decisions that we have made along the way. It is all me. And there is no one that i can point a finger at or blame. So at times that seem so hopeless and full of despair, that i am not in control, the most frutrating part of it all? Knowing that it is all me. And only i can change the circumstances and situations in m life.
**Disclaimer**
I also know that there are limitations to that. But i am not getting into those here. This is only for me to on the very surface, know that from start to end, i have choices. If i do not like how my life is, change it and quite coming up with excuses to deny that i can. While i can not control the person drinking then driving and smashing into my car putting me into the hospital and giving me the hopeless situation of being injured, i did have the choice of getting into my car and being on the same road at that time. I knw eh? the paradox of life? But how was i supposed to know? Your not, but if my choices would have been diffferent 1 hour ago, or a day, week, year and even 10 years ago, I probably would not have been in my car that day and getting hit by a drunk driver.
There are many different situations and scenarios that we can think up that we belive that are beyond control, when in fact, yes they are. Maybe it all depends on the chooices that we make today, how we are feeling about ourself today, we determine and affect the out of one day 10 years from now.
If i sit here today, not really likng the type of life that i am living and want to change that, does it help to think back on decisions that i have made before? Yes, i believe it does, and no, at the same time i find that i sometimes think on those past decisions and then i justify why i made trying to get rid of my guilt and anxiety. I have to come to terms with the decisions that i have already made and realize that i can not change them. I need to accept what comes next into my life, the hardships and the pleasures. Knowing that even when i have the pleasures, there will always be some type of hardship, stress, anxiety, that will make me just want to scream, run away and hide, and bury my head in the sand.
While yes, the hardships can make me a better person, but only if i decide for that to happen. So while every one is giving inspirational quotes as to how the stresses and pains of life will only make you a stronger and better person, only if you decide that they will. And for those people that feel a need to comfort and give a helping hand to those that are in less fortunate circumstances then they are, we need to remeber also, that we all make our own choices and decisions in our life. I am not saying to not help our fellow human, just to be aware that what we feel is right and helpful, may for another, at that time, not be.
For myself, I know the decisions that i have made in the past have determined where i am at, at this moment. I can not change them. Thinking back, i have to decioher within my own mind why i made them. Was is out of practibility?, Justification or fear? Love, respect, compassion? Or just the fact that at the time i did not know any better? This is where my groth, knowledge and experience comes from. But also to realize why i made those decisions in the past, to be more mindful of the decisions that i will make in the future to keep my life on the purpose that it is to do.