I so want to keep going on and on with my post yesterday about time and anxieties, but i have found with myself, i can get stuck on a thought and eventually realize that all i have been doing was circling the thoughts in my head and not really getting any where, wasting my time. I have to force myself to focus on another aspect of life, thought and experience. This progresses me on my journey’s path of actual purpose. Oh, wait, still on the same topic, kinda, as yesterday, purpose! Does it ever go away? No, I think this is why we have the type of world that we live today. Full of mindless, purposeless and meaningless, mindfull, purposefull and meaningfull, habits, perceptions, cultures, religions, and live’s that distract me from my one true purpose. Again, to enhance my human condition, physically, mentally and spiritually. Purpose never goes away, it is and always will be an integral part of our human beingness and i know this is the reason behind why we distract ourselves from purpose. The purpose and meanings that i have created in my life distract me from my intuitive knowing and sense that i have purpose for being here. One part of this purpose of me being in existence, is to seek out and to understand this purpose of this existence. My opinion as to why i am to do this? So that my higher consciousness, energy, spirit, will also start understanding it’s part and it’s purpose of it’s existence and meaning.
That all seems quite vague, this explanation of the purpose of my existence, possibly of the human existence. Hard to proove and even harder to actually live. There is no end, there is no money to be earned, no respect and definately no prize when i finally figure it all out. Oh and by the way, many many life times i am sure. This could be what the ancients meant by ascention, or not.
So in the end, why should i even try to follow this path? Why should i even think that what i am doing, (that which fills me an inspired passionate hope and sense of being, searching for my purpose of my humanity and my eternal infinite purpose of existence) has any meaning or purpose in this life? Simply, it will enhance this life so that my next life is further along this path.
Or, i could just go to work, pay the bills, be part of cutlure and society and drone on, every life. Creating purposefull distractions and meanings that keep me busy. Survive from one day to the next, to be happy.